So a lot has changed. A few months ago the worst, most unimaginable thing happened to me. My dad died. My most beloved best friend and the worlds greatest father, and it all happened so quickly and so so unexpectedly. One minute everything was fine, and then suddenly it wasn’t.
My dad and I were so close, we did everything together and I miss him so much. Its been a strange period since it happened- to be honest i’ve coped extremely well- not at all how I’d imagined, but i think thats because it still doesn’t feel real, I still feel like he’s just ‘away’, and will be coming back very soon. I’m sure reality will hit in the future, and when it does I have no doubt that it will be awful.
This event, was by far, the worst thing that could ever have happened to me. There are no words to explain just how awful it is, but as many people say, good things can come from bad. My perspective on life has very much changed: if the worst thing has already happened, and I’m getting through it, then what on earth is the point about worrying about other things? Last year, I was a big worrier. By that, I mean I worried about EVERYTHING. And that was such a waste of my time and effort, not to mention, it was bloody miserable. The other thing this experience has really brought to life is that life really is too short, you have to make the most of it, appreciate it, and realise that its not what you have or how ‘successful’ you are that you will be remembered for, but how you made people feel.
Easy to say all this, but time to actually apply it! A few weeks ago, I stumbled across the Minimalism documentary. I’d briefly heard about minimalism before, but knew nothing really about it, but who can say no to a good Netflix documentary. The whole thing was unexpectedly inspiring! I don’t see myself reaching a full minimalist lifestyle, but I do feel such a desire to declutter my possessions and get rid of anything that isn’t truly important/ makes me happy.
I have well and truly started on the process (although it doesn’t look like it- our house looks and feels just as full of stuff as it did before!). I’ve cleared out 3 or four bags of clothes, several pairs of shoes, loads of paperwork, as well as books/dvds/cds etc. Already things just feel a lot calmer, and I do just feel a stronger want to do things slightly differently, be it more reading, less tv; better food choice (some of the time!), and a definite change in my buying/spending habits.
If you haven’t seen it, i’d definitely recommend taking a look. Its not for everyone, but hopefully you’ll find some inspiration and positivity 🙂